Sometimes I just wonders why I am so moody and sensitive... that is really something for being a Cancer and a woman?
Gush, who knows why. But feeling this kind of isolation makes me mad, angry, sad, and even moodier. I was in extreme anger last week when I felt it - maybe I shouldn't say it is sutle - it is so obvious - all the whispering, all the gathering, and all the avoidance.
Big deal, I don't mind not going out or have a friendly working environment at all. And should I really care?
Compared with them, it seems obviously I am living in a different world.
However, just like Raymond wants to be loved by everyone. So do I. I always want to be the people person - a good one. I like to socializing and making new friends. That is probably why I feel sad when I feel this happenning.
Well, I can't be liked by everyone for even I don't like everyone, right? But it still hurts.
Sometimes I wish I could be like pp. So I don't need to really pay attention to what other people think about me and really care about what they think about me. But I just couldn't be that way. I am me, I am a little crazily sensitive and moody woman - who want to be loved by the world.
I try to make myself think it in a better way. In the long run, they are not necessarily my good friends. They could be totatly strangers. Even though I might envy their friendships, yet I have my own group of friends. I have my own goal and task that I would like to make real.
I know I still will feel sad and angry. But I will control better. For I shouldn't care and wouldn't care... what I need to care is my goal and task...
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